So I just got done with SNL tonight. It was a good time. Maybe I'm just being self-indulgent, but I am really starting to think that when I respond to God, He responds to my response. That sounds stupid and convoluted, but what I mean is this: God is always there reaching out to me, desiring for me to desire Him. So the initiative is His. But recently, more so than ever in the past, I have found myself responding to Him and honestly seeking to be filled, equiped, and enabled by His Spirit to do what He has called me to do. I also find myself seeking purity of life so that I can fulfill His mission for me. And He has been honoring my response, especially when it comes to preaching His word. The correlation is almost eerie.
I generally hate when people write stuff like this because I am so cynical. But then it happens to me and I sound like a Christian author all of the sudden. I don't know. I do know that sometimes God blesses very impure people, pastors having affairs, televangelists... Or maybe it is just that we still don't have eyes to see what God's blessing really looks like. Whatever it looks like I felt like I am taking steps toward it. And that is releasing me to let God deal with the results however he chooses, because as for me, I am doing what God is asking of me. What else is there, right?