But in that scheme we are still working for our own salvation and we may be doing it through something as subtle as "having it all together." If I just have a balanced life, then I know I'll be ok. Then I'll know that my past doesn't control me. So we maintain control over our circumstances. Perhaps the most damning savior of all is making "balance" the Lord of your life. "Everything in moderation," is the motto, and the feeling is that I will be ruled by nothing. And indeed the man who makes balance and moderation his Lord will find that he must eventually sacrifice the greatest things for balance, because as we all know, love is too messy a business for someone who has got it all together.
The real reason that Balance is such a deadly slave master is that it keeps you from the one Master who can truly set you free. Balance tells us not to get to crazy about god. Don't go too far with it. Keep it in perspective. But what is the proper perspective of a God who is too large to comprehend? The only appropriate response is awe. Followed by worship. Followed by passionate devotion. And the safety of God is a dangerous safety, yes. The safety you find in a lover's arms who is wild and unpredictable. It is the safety of giving yourself completely to a Master who loved you so much that he died for you. If you worship Balance and you can't keep your life together will Balance forgive you? If you have perfect Balance in your life will you then be truly fulfilled? Jesus is the Master who dares you to soar and fail, because he forgives. And when you catch him, he fulfills you completely. You can't earn him, only discover him, and sell everything to gain him.